i wish its was the 60's, i wish we could be happy...i wish, i wish that something would happen

i just finished watching the movie HollywoodLand with Adrien Brody (and Ben Aflleck -_-).
it was a potpourri of all the clichés i can remember of being fed with in my childhood.
set back in the very late1950's...
it reminded me of the time when i fell in love with literature by reading Sartre.
the book that really shook my life is i think La Nausée.
this was perhaps one of the rare moments when i felt like i really relate to what this cynical character was feeling and going through.
this was also the period when i was getting consciousness about myself and decided to, at least try, to start using this thingy i have up between my two ears...
i really would like to live in those days where everywhere you look people are always smoking (first of all i should be able to smoke!)
and the first thing to do in the morning is to get up from bed, have a scotch, a good round of morning sex and do what you wanna do...
that sounds so untrue!!
but i'd like to empty a bottle of Jack Daniel's everyday while seeing my adult life sinking like the Titanic...
that would be so great to live at the same era as Sartre, Camus, Capote, Cash and all the other great thinkers... and also to have jazz music everywhere...

i think that i might be back on track
today i've been out to buy a waterheater for home..
then i worked the whole day on the paper on mauritian blog languages...
i think that i'm slowly becoming half the nerd(aber keine Klugsheißer!) i used to be.. at least i'm gaining the interest in research back...
and i really like the subject for in some way i'm kind of thinking of the real reasons why i'm blogging..
as far as i can remember, on my first post i mentionned 'Why not'...
well perhaps there is another reason behind it...
i'm somehow discovering myself.. trying to be more open to myself...
maybe the fact that it's something that goes public gives me the incentive to once in a while write some of the many thoughts i have ..
and also knowing that actually pretty few people read it and that i no one's actually following my post breaks down an barrier as for the difficulties i might have to express myself..
and i find it pretty nice to be able to jot down my thoughts, feelings, experiences and pictures.
i believe that everyone has a specific reason why he/she blogs;
maybe to have more self conviction and be able to stand for their opinion, or to share with the online community their ideological point of view, to publish the artistic side of someone, to evade from the mundane routine and be someone else...
all in all blogging remains a narcissistic cerebral masturbation..

back to university

today i resumed university

the morning was quite like a usual monday morning for me; i take much time to adapt myself with the surrounding environment filled with people and moreover those in the class who always cackle and giggle so loud every morning until the lecturer arrives.

today as usual the university was somehow not ready; my friend Ron told me that our time-table is only settled for monday and tuesday...

we had to move to another class found in the faculty of agriculture building. this is a weird fact for the faculty of social studies and humanities to which i belong and which has the most students (if i'm not mistaken) actually doesn't have a problem lecture hall! we students are constant wanderers. the hallways of this building always bare this lack of light and this is everything but encouraging to start a three hours lecture at 8 am!

the day went on pretty cool though as we actually discussed individually about our junior thesis (i'm writing a paper on Mauritian blogs...i should be devoting myself totally to this) and that's it...

today i resumed weight-lifting... needless to say how hard it was after all the junk food i've been having during the summer break and all the incredible amount of coke i've been having daily! usually there are some pretty annoying guys there who think they are the best just because they load their bars with a lot of weight but actually do the wrong movement!! so today, none of them, no damn weird noises like someone's having butt-sex... but i was sweating a lot and now feel the pain in my muscles... i also played basketball; it reminded me of my middle-school days!

been to the other lecture i had and was yet another light one and that was so cool!

shopping and then back at Quatre-Bornes!

had some sandwiches while doing some household work..had milk-spaghetti as diner and now enjoying a nice tea with some music playing!

Cool thing i am just trying; open Kid A album from Radiohead with 17 seconds interval on two different programs it make a question-answer effect!!! really amazingly cool! which shows that these guys are pure geniuses! (PS; thanks Ron)

i guess that tomorrow i should be devoting as far as possible the whole day for studying a bit, doing some reading and working on this junior thesis thingy...

Dies ist Elie, mein Freund aus univerisität... ich mag ihn heißen BROWN BEAR. Ich fragte ihn heute für die ein Bild für den Blog, aber er verweigert ... So i gestohlen das! Immer ich Spaß zu haben nettes Gespräch mit ihm und bewundere ihn für seine leichte unconformism! Gibt! Du bist auf meinem Blog! Und ich schrieb es in Deutsch, so dass du sie nicht verstehst!

summer break

i have not been posting for pretty long

tomorrow my summer break (in mauritius summer break is from november or december to january) will come to an end

when i look back on these days i see a lot of memories, some good and some not as good as i wish they would be

i have been going to ile-aux-cerfs, volonteering for a charity fair, hiking to mount le Pouce, going out with my germans friends, felt lonely and helpless but also worked in a diving centre.

all in all i think that i was able to learn to love this island much more

i have been wandering a lot around the island and was able to admire the beauty that it can give to everyone who can see the bright sight of Mauritius

on new years-eve i still did´t know what to do. and i felt like not doing anything. then Phil and the others invited me to the north. we both also discussed about him needing someone to help him in the diving centre that he was actually managing in the north. i did accept for several reasons

-help a good friend of mine

-have something to do so as to escape suicide

-remind myself how i hate working and that i should get back to studying seriously again

-get a few more bucks in my pocket

Perhaps the job started that same evening when he received a call and had to get the centreäs boat on the jetty to save it from fireworks. i went to help him. funny thing we had to swim to the boat which was some metres from the jettz, and as the sun was already down, i can say i had a night swim! after much trouble we got the boat safely back.

I then celebrated new year with Philipp, Nina, Laryssa and Andreas

had pizza for diner, took our stuff to the beach, drank (a lot) and watched people starting fireworks five minutes before midnight and at midnight we had our fireworks too. then Andy and I stayed on the beach for a some conversation while drinking

the next morning went back home.

i started working the diving centre right the day after. basically there was only Philipp, Bernard the boat captain who i like to call TiBen and me. the diving centre is affiliated to one found in Belle-Mare and sometimes some other instructors and divers came from there.

the spot is definitely awesome. some who have been working in hotels around the island mention that it is the most beautiful scenery you can have from hotel. i agree quite much as it was such a beautifull lagoon where you could islands such as Coin de Mire, Round island, Flat island, Ilot Gabriel, Ile-aux-Serpents.

it took me some days to get used to the very hot climate and the burning sun which definitely got me have much more color now! and also the people who were for most of them crazy. i here refer to the guys from the boat team who was just next to the diving centre. all were very special but yet so nice and funny!

most of the evenings Phil and I used to call the day by having a nice Cuba Libre! just to chill out as it was really necessary after such hectic days at the diving centre. the job was really cool but so hectic from time.

at first my plan was to find a place in the north to stay during the period i intented to work there. but i was unable to find a room for me for everywhere was booked. so i had to do the travel from Beau-bassin to Anse-la-raie almost everyday and evening. i had to take at least 3 bus and a car lift for each way! but this allowed me to discover the north which is really beautfull. i found it pretty strucking the outraged number of palm and coconut trees that you can find on this island! but i never would be able to do all this 6 hours round trip without my buddy-ipod!

sometimes when i had free time i would do watersports which was really cool. i did tubing, and waterskiing which was hard for me for i couldnt keep my arms stretched for long, accident issue. i didnt dare trying wakeboarding, discboarding, barefoot and so on.

i was also able to try fishing, to pilot a boat, make some knots, and get to know and endless amount of things about diving.

on the 8th of January we celebrated Phils 25th Birthday at Trou-aux-Biches with Nina and Jörg and Tanja who prepared such a wonderfull diner!

although that some days were pretty hard for me i really enjoyed my summer holidays and i´m pleased to share some pictures.

my computer was dead because of some viruses which blocked the processor completely. thanks to Jörg who spent the whole of yesterday´s evening fixing it i am now slowly able to use the computer again.

i guess this is the reason why i am still awake and blogging at 2,30 am.

i just hope that i will be able to be back on track soon. i have been working on it though, been making my papers, starting some savings, i also took the books for uni that i have to read.. but didn´t start yet...

new blog name

i haven´t been posting for a while
a lot have been going through in here
but i don´t wanna mention it now and will try to post something which will in a sense resume my summer break
just a few info though
-as promised i shaved my head
-i am doing something these days which totally goes against my nature
-Radiohead is awesome; it feels so good to listen to OK COMPUTER after so long and still be amazed by the magic of this album

it was pretty much of a while since i was thinking of changing the name of the Blog
I was wondering whether i´m this nerd i used to think i was
then i thought about ,,Legal Alien´´
which not only sounds cool but also portraits the way i feel in here
i also would like to post more pictures and impressions about mauritius
but for a start i should be posting much more often

the verses from the great poet Khal resumes how i feel about living in Mauritius
"parceque je suis créole de mon cordage,
indien de mon mat,
européen de la vergue,
je suis mauricien de ma quete et francais de mon exil.
Je ne serai toujours ailleurs qu´en moi-meme
parceque je ne peux qu´imaginer ma terre natale"