"we are standing on the edge"

Sundays can be really depressing
but since i'm in Quatre-Bornes it gets different
the town is lively with the fair and so on...
weird experience that i had yesterday...
my head was spinning so much and it happened again the whole day
i had a soup as diner and i guess it's quite easy to prepare it

was just browsing some blogs and i realized that lately this feeling of powerlessness which is mine is mainly due to the fact that i not only feel but am fruitless
it's been a serious decline as i don't feel much of that urge i use to have for art in every form
this constant will to be able to make something out of myself.
i also feel like loosing the touch for social research
today i was on the verge of quiting college
but still i feel compelled about my future
who am i gonna be? what am i gonna do? how will i be able to help people?
i guess the reason i go out much lately is to forget about all these
and i don't have art anymore in my life

bottom line i lost will to live
Cindy was perhaps one of them
and it's when you don't have something that you realize how important it might be
it seems like what bothers me more about this break-up is the fact that i have been wrong
why am i so obsessed about always making the right move?

i just also recall that i'm a huge word eater
i've just been scooping through some of my past posts and in all of them some words are missing
i'm so impulsive; this is so obvious by the drastic shift and lack of flow in my thoughts

where is my mind?